April 26th
Everyday I sit and I wonder if things are ever going to get better.
And it hurts not knowing the answer.
I know everyone says it will…But how do they know? How does anyone know that my terrible bad luck will ever end? Because I feel as if it never will.
And again…I know there are people out there who have it worse than I do. But most people have one or two bad things happen to them in a day. I’m lucky if I only have five or six….
And I hate it. I hate it so much.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=heA83skTmnI →
Found out why I hated this song so much…..It’s basically me and my ex. And it just hurts to listen…..But I don’t stop.
April 11th 2012
Been a while….Not because nothing bad has happened, because osmething bad always happens…I just got tired of tumblr, really….
But today has been terrible for me. Nothing has gone right and I just wanna drop dead.
I haven’t had a proper conversation with my mother today without getting yelled at. She tells me that I need to do something with my life before I get depression and start popping pills…..Too fucking late. I already have depression….Not popping pills, not doing anything that stupid…But I think that’s why it hurts so much. Because I don’t have anything to do to take away the pain.
And on top of that some VERY close friends of mine have been talking about me behind my back…..
I finally say I’m going out and my parents started yelling at me…
And then I finally get out, get to the cinema and there is a powercut not even halfway into the fucking film!
And….You know what? I’m not pissed off about it. Nope. I’m jut upset and disappointed. Things like this have happened to me so many times before, I think I’ve just got past the pissed off stage of it all. I’m just upset over it now…..
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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
‘Cause I have faith in you
That you’re gonna make it through another night
Stop thinking about the easy way out
There’s no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you’re not done
You’re far too young
And the best is yet to come
So just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I’m reaching out
To let you know that you’re not alone
And if you can’t tell, I’m scared as hell
‘Cause I can’t get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
<3
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